There are some days where my nutrition is absolutely deplorable, and more guilt piles on my head as a breastfeeding mom. Tsk tsk.
It is the end of my first semester of grad school. Syntax paper is quite a bit less than finished and due in T-minus one week. Child is still sick, and has been sick for over a week. Self sick. Child feeds several times throughout the night. Opted for sleep instead of work last night. Not regretting it. Manage to send husband and child to their respective day job and day care with homemade lunches and some semblance of breakfast in their tummies.
I on the other hand, neglected to eat breakfast before leaving the house. Nor did I bring breakfast or lunch with me to school. Recipe for disaster.
Enter Monster energy drink. $2, 210 calories, 54 grams of sugar. That’s healthy, right?
1pm. Go and feed the baby at daycare. I’m now really hungry. But I HATE (I really do hate) spending money on take out food. It’s crap that makes me feel like crap. Plus, it’s snowing and I don’t want to walk any farther than to campus daycare and back to my office.
Try to decide what my options are for under $4. Preferably even cheaper. Decide on a bowl of instant noodles from the campus convenience store.
$3, 490 calories, 17g fat, 2000mg sodium. Boy am I #winning or what?
Now I’ve spent $5 on food today, am poorly nourished, am as salty as a ham, and feel terrible to boot.
I’m really looking forward to a proper dinner.
My husband and I have been together for almost 10 years, and 99% of those days, he has had Vector meal replacement cereal for breakfast (and some lunches and dinners, on those kind of days…oh yeah, forgot to mention it’s a Canadian thing). He mentions once every couple months that his life would be so much less stressful if he never had to eat again.
At the time, Rhinehart was asking for beta testers. My virtual hand shot up, pick me pick me! but then I found out the ingredients included whey (husband is milk protein allergic, so that was a no go) and then I was breastfeeding so as an experimental subject I would have been less than ideal.
However, along the way, soylent’s formulation turned vegan (YAY NO MILK), and they started accepting international orders on their crowdfunding website. I have ordered 3 months worth through their initial campaign and Backerkit and am eagerly awaiting delivery, which should happen sometime in the next few months.
And on days like today I really wish it was here already.
In fact, not a day goes by where I don’t wish I had Soylent in my pantry and office drawer. I don’t like eating crap food on the days where I don’t make lunch. I like spending $$ on crap food even less. I hate feeling like crap most of all. I don’t want to let myself even have the option of making crappy food choices when I’m tired and hungry and stressed out and short on time.
So, all I want for Christmas (or soon after) is SOYYYYLLLENNNNNTTTTTT.
(and for everybody to be kind to one another).