Day 2 of Being Husbandless

No, nothing catastrophic happened. He’s just away on a weekend trip with the boys. But it has been interesting to see what happens when I am allowed to revert to what I am, away from an other.

I have sat around at home.
I haven’t done the dishes.
I haven’t talked much.
I only cook what I want, when I want.
I…really need to shower.

Good God it’s lonely.

So he’ll be back today and I’m sure he’ll have many fun stories to tell (and some that can probably never be told). And I’ll miss my weekend of bachelorettedom. But there will be another time. Perhaps next time I’ll even go do something productive.

So to each one of you reading this, I wish you an other, a someone:

Someone who inspires you every day.
Someone you wake up with each morning.
Someone you can wake up before each morning.
Someone you can wake up when they’re late for work.
Someone who gives good hugs.
Someone who is kind to you.
Someone who makes cool stuff.
Someone who is always excited to tell you about the cool stuff he/she is making.
Someone whom you can talk to.
Someone with whom you can be sad.
Someone with whom you can be what nobody else knows you are.

What I Have Been Thinking About Lately

1.) That I am going to set my voicemail message to “Thank you for calling Air Miles. Pour le service en français, appuyez sur le deux. Your call is important to us. Please hold and one of our agents will be with you shortly” just to see how long I can get someone to hold for.

2.) That sometimes, the exception becomes the reality and that it can be devastating.

3.) That I have become old and cranky, in the best ‘don’t fuck with me’ way, especially in dealing with companies. Like recently, I bought one of those deal vouchers from LivingSocial Vancouver for house cleaning. Turns out, the company offering the deal, Qualico Cleaning Services, is a total phishing scam. Nobody showed up for the appointment, nobody responded to my email asking what happened, their “Booking Line” is a FULL voicemail message box (not surprising). Getting a refund from LivingSocial, but really! As an established company with a decent reputation, I’m really disappointed that LivingSocial did not properly vet this company before offering a deal on it, which over 1000 people bought. I’m not going to be the only one that’s going to be pissed about this.

4.) I dreamt about running with Terry Fox.

The four items above don’t actually have anything to do with each other. It’s early in the morning, I’m tired and didn’t sleep well, and need to clear my mind before getting on with my day.

Stop Incessant Calls from 18554654015 ROGERS Promotional Services

So my husband switched our cell phones from Fido to Rogers a couple years ago. I have this blog post from 2008 that still gets TONS of hits http://beverlywu.com/2008/10/03/stop-incessant-calls-from-18776222662-fido-promotional-services/ because FIDO has this telemarketing service to try to sell you stuff. They call incessantly. I tell people how to stop it.

The same thing now has been happening with ROGERS. They call from +1 (855) 465-4015.

When you call the number back, you get a recorded message from ZEDD SOLUTIONS, a telemarketing company that calls on behalf of Rogers.

To remove your number from their call list, you have to call (647) 727-1645, according to the recorded message.

Really? I’m not going to call long distance just so they stop calling me.

Anyway, hope this helps those out there who are looking for the solution to their mystery calls!

Propranolol for Migraines & Indomethacin for Exertion Headaches

*Edit Dec 21* – So far I’ve been mostly okay still on the Propranolol! I’ve figured out that it is the Indomethacin that makes me SUPER dizzy…like 3 glasses of wine dizzy. Use with caution! As I mention below, Steve was on Indomethacin for a while for Ankylosing Spondylitis, but it never caused any side effects for him. Any side effects from the Propranolol seem to have worn off for the most part. I mean it’s only 10mg!

So after a bad spat of exertion headaches and migraines (6 of 9 days ruined!), I went to go see my doctor about it. She looked and sounded SO alarmed, brought out big scary words like STROKE, and BLOOD CLOTS. So I got alarmed, and promptly started crying. 

Anyway, after some kleenex and a long discussion about what to do, stuff like I’m not getting an IUD instead of using the Nuvaring because I want kids in the near future; using Nuvaring back to back might help hormone fluctuations; Yes I understand the estrogen might be making things worse, but my PMS migraines were so  bad before I went on Nuvaring anyway I don’t think it’s making it worse or better, she poked around her computer a little bit, and we decided to try a couple of new medications – one she had prescribed me in February, with the instruction to give it a try if my headaches got to the frequency of 1/week. I never filled that prescription, but thought that now would be an appropriate time to give it a try.

So I’ve been on this new medication, Propranolol, for about a week now. It’s supposed to help prevent migraines. I think it’s too soon to say whether or not it’s working yet, but I have noticed some side effects.

I’m on one 10mg pill per day. I’ve been taking it in the morning with breakfast, mostly. The warnings are that it might make you a little bit dizzy and tired, which I have been finding to be true. For rowing, perhaps due to a combination of having just recovered from a cold, followed by a bad 2 weeks of headaches, the drug, and horrid sleep etc, my power has just been disappearing. My latest 6k and 2k test results were embarrasing. So embarassing.

The other major side effect seems to be that I get major cold sweats when exercising. My face and chest will just LEAK water. I’m usually a sweater, but not this much, and it’s usually warm! And it seems to be less salty than usual as well. My body’s warm, but my skin goes cold. So cold. Even in a cardio room at the gym that I’m sure is more on the warm side than not. The cold sweat and the slight dizziness I’m pretty sure are side effects. The tiredness and groggy brain-ness…well, that could just be me in general. 

So feeling a little bit foggy is annoying, especially when you’re trying to interact with people. Also, feeling weak and a little bit dizzy is annoying for morning rowing practices. So last night I tried taking the Propranolol with dinner, thinking that I can handle being groggy before bed. Unfortunately, it just caused my skin to go cold before I went to sleep (different feeling than just being cold and needing more blankets), and I woke up a few times during the night with my skin and sheets cold and soaked with cold sweat. 

I mean, I have been having trouble this year with night sweats, but it’s usually more GROSS, and not COLD. 

Man, I really gotta get this shit figured out. Perhaps I can try taking it with LUNCH tomorrow? 

Happily, the vertigo/dizziness seem to have decreased in the past few days, so maybe in time the rest of the side effects will go away as well. 

The other medication I’m trying is Indomethacin 25mg before intense exercise – it’s supposed to prevent exertion headaches. Have only used it twice so far – Steve was on Indomethacin for a long time for his arthritis and it ended up giving him some kind of ulcer, which was a real pain to fix, so that one I will use sparingly and with caution.

 

Muddling Through Life.

Really, what do we all do but muddle through life to the best of our abilities? Here and there we pick up something new – a pine cone, a new skill, a shiny bit of ribbon, a half-cobbled together something we can use, and we try to make that a part of us, so we can be a little bit better, and do more cool things.

How can I use this crumpled bit of tin? Oh hey! I can do _______ with it – that’s neat!

You need to do _________ ? Well, I can help you do ____ and _____ and ______ … not perfect, but sort of!

Yes I have a _________ … do you need it?

But it’s not perfect. There’s only so much I’ve acquired, only so much I can do with what I have. I try to do as much as I can, but the resources are asked to do more than they’re supposed to know how. Overclocked. Off-label. Which is pretty cool. But not perfect.

So when I make mistakes, forget, screw up, disappoint, forget…

Forgive me.

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